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1. There seems no way to write something like this and it seems we all have similar feelings beginning by staring at a blank page. Grief is such an overwhelming and unrelenting emotion. Thinking about Jamie´s beauty is the only thing that softens the continous waves of this storm. So it is, that these are the things that I think about while I try to keep it all together...
   Jamie was gentle in spirit with a heart so big he could fit the world inside,
   honest to himself and others he was never afraid to speak the truth even if it scared him or was not easy to say,
   he had great times and bad times never boasting nor being embarrassed, he was modest and able to hold his head up even when things were hard,
   an amazing friend, he was also able to hold a hand, listen with openness, open his heart, his home, his time and his life to all,
   he lived his life on his terms but was also able to balance that with his gift of giving, never losing himself but always making each person he knew feel special,
   he encouraged each person he knew to pursue their dreams and supported that without question--you were not going to be a singer, you ARE a singer, not going to be a writer, you ARE a writer,
   his laugh was magic and would carry a room to joy,
   his talent for saying exactly the wrong thing at the right time has made for a million moments of suprised laughter and joy,
   no one could laugh at themselves and freely as Jamie,
   a master of nicknames, he has never called anyone by any name other than the one he gave them himself,
   never able to master the art of time, only Jamie could escape the wrath of a person waiting two or three hours for him by innocently saying, "I was working on a groove",
   never has a judgement passed his lips- even in frustration Jamie was fair and calm.
   "People are going to do what they are going to do" he would say. Simple but real. He knew that the key to life was not trying to control everything.
   He was carefree in living but always loyal-once he gave his heart to his friends or family it was forever,
   he was a devoted, loving, adoring father who never stopped being amazed daily by the beautiful little girl that he and Cheri created--his heart beats in hers eternally,
   He would tell me that I should be the solid for his liquid or the liquid to his solid but that we could not both be liquid at the same time. Very good advice. I am just wondering which one am I supposed to be now?
   I miss you Butterfly...
   Mflower
   

   Comment by Martina [Visitor] — 01/03/06 @ 11:50

2. Oh my God I sit in disbelief as the realization of the lost of one of my oldest and dearest friends swells in my heart, in my stomach and throughout my very being. Jamie, words will never describe the ache I feel in my heart, my disbelief that you are gone, nor the emptiness I now have in my soul. We go so far back that the word "friend" doesn't even do us justice. I haven't seen you since leaving L.A. in 93 but I was thrilled to hear that you were married and had a daughter. After seeing her face and your smile on this site I was touched so deeply I felt as if my own heart would stop. I learned of your departure only yesterday, ironically on my way back from a funeral! Craig (Dion) had tracked me down and I don't think that initially I believed him. It was too incredible, to wrong and to unfair for me to have to hear this about my boy. I'm sad, I'm angry and I'm so confused. I have a picture of you and Chris and I (you have on my polka doted shirt with the holes in it) because you didn't have anything (cool) to wear! Smile!! You always gave me a hard time about my loving that picture of us because of the goofy shirt I made you wear. I'm seated in front of you and Chris is next to you on a platform at some dindgy wharehouse site. We WERE COOL and life was the bomb! The 80's was all about us strugglin to eat, pay rent and light fires underneath my old beaters to un-freeze it. We didn't have much but we had one another for the two plus years that we were roomates.I thank God that I kept you in my heart so closely even though miles, careers and family changed our paths so dramatically. YOu and I were soul mates, brother & sister till the end, I'll never ever forget your love, your smile, that style of music we invented! and YOU!!! My husband hung that very picture on my wall in my office at work just the day before i learned of your death. It's as if you were letting me know that you had gone on, only I didn't know it at the time. We were packing to move and I came across a bunch of those pix and picked that one, with you...I know in my heart that was your way of saying goodbye to me before Craig gave me the news. I know that you knew how hurt I would be and you wanted to comfort me. This is in fact one of the greatest sorrows of my life, but as you requested in your note to me back in 81, I'll keep that candle burnin in the window, only this time it'll be for you.
   Jamie you are my heart...my song, have always been my laughter and now, my angel. I will never forget our years and struggles together. I am greatful that a piece of you has been left behind in your beautiful daughter and so happy that you found the love that you were always so deserving of in your wife. I pray that God continues to bless your family and friends with the comfort of the knowledge that...you are home.

   Comment by Lydia Marie [Visitor] — 01/05/06 @ 12:51

3. Last night I said goodbye to Jamie. I had cried for two day's. I Couldn't work, eat or sleep. I could find no peace within myself. Last night I drank a toast to Jamie. I talked about my best friend from the 80's like there was no tomorrow. I found eveyone, anyone who knew "us" to laugh with me. I remembered his beautiful blue eyes, that smile that lit up the room, and then, I let him go. I made a promise to myself that I would send a gift to his wife and daughter to help them get through. And that eveytime I had a little extra I would help them the way that Jamie helped me. I know that he would do it for me. I know that he loved me that much and this was my chance to show him just what he meant to me. I may never meet his wife or even his daughter, but that's o.k. I know that if Jamie loved anyone their soul had to be as pure and as beautiful as his was. I am honored to have known and loved this man. I am blessed with having had his presance in my life for the years that I did. I am in total awe of the beauty I see in his child, and I am especially proud of the man that the young man I knew became. Now I can honestly say that the only thing I will miss is his music. I have one song that Jamie and I wrote together. He sings background for me on it. I will cherish this always, but if any of you have a CD of Jamie or some of his work that I can buy please please let me know. That is what I am missing. Him, I cannot alow myself to say I miss,because when I said goodbye yesterday my memories let me know...that he will always be with me.
   
   Please call me if you have any info on any local service being held or benefits in his honor.
   Lydia Marie 612-342-1440
   or email to: johnsonmanagerial@yahoo.com
   May God bless you all and be with now and always.

   Comment by Lydia Marie [Visitor] — 01/06/06 @ 21:18

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